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             It's not where you've been, it's where you're going.          


I hold it true, whatever befall;I feel it, when I sorrow most;
Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
── Alfred Lod Tennyson  



            

EST 0111 2015 1H

过了倒计时过了假期2012也过到第11天了
有好几篇blog写到一半写不下去了还在草稿箱里
就像刚才又想开始一篇一类的文章但稍稍开头感觉已经不在

2012。。。

有些从来不找我的人开始示好
有些原本熟悉的渐行渐远
参加了一个简单婚礼伴了下美女之后又恢复到不修边幅的淡定状态
被2个人几乎是同时要求每天写些文字告知现状抒发情感以及各种碎碎念
深究于各种有关LGBT的想法 摇摆在诸多矛盾的理念里

开学第二天就去医院听了一天讲座之后就开始实习
看着整理出来的日程表感觉这学期又将过得很丰富
相当好学生的我日子应该会过得很快吧

看电影看漫画看英剧看美剧看话剧
听rap听freestyle听classic听opera
明明以前是看不了话剧听不了opera的人

时差还没有调整到位 一沾枕头就睡

真不想承认是个念旧的人
但发现自己真念旧
同时也喜新　喜新不厌旧
看来我是很贪的　想要得好多好多

买衣服 坚持只穿三件就出门 靠着唯一的UGG过长长的冬季ａ
随时随地想买格子衬衫　又随时想把头发剪短
但觉得可惜　并且对剪掉后的效果不乐观

越发想远离那些经常抱怨的人
并且不断提醒自己少抱怨多行动
所谓正能量就是这样创造的吧

不烦恼不试图找寻所有的答案
平静　太过平静
思路清晰的时候觉得缺少了什么
很重要的东西　不踏实的感觉

我的桃花们呢～

最近一次内心有波动是看到某几个人的时候
之后很快又恢复了平静　自知不长久　
过不了10天都成浮云　今天是第四天

这些年　喜欢过那么多人　也被一些人喜欢着
终究单身一人　随意自在　纵有牵挂也只是执念　放在心里不再表达
或许是习惯了和一些人　保持不挑明不闪躲的关系　说复杂也简单
如今被逼着撇清了关系　反而不自在起来　觉得无牵无挂　像零下30度不穿裤袜
转而想　可能这才是真正的新开始　所以要珍惜现在　每份每刻每个转念

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God creatd he him; male and female created he them. 

Be friutful, and multiply, and replenish the earth.

[Genesis 1:27-28]

And they called unto Lot, and said unto him, Where are the men which came in to thee this night? bring them out unto us, that we may know them.

Then the LORD rained upon Sodom and upon Gomorrah brimstone and fire from the LORD out of heaven;

And he overthrew those cities, and all the plain, and all the inhabitants of the cities, and that which grew upon the ground.

[Genesis 19:5, 24-25]

「Most famous quotes」

Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.

[Leviticus 18:22]

If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have  committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.

[Leviticus 20:13]

For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature;

And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.

[Romans 1:26-27]

Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with him, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth we should not serve sin.

For he that is dead is freed from sin.

[Romans 6:6-7]

Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselved with mankind.

Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God.

And such were some of you; but ye are washed, but ye are sancified, but ye are justified in the name of the LORD Jesus, and by the Spirit of our God.

[1 Corinthians 6:9-11]

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 

「Love between same sex」

And Ruth said, Intreat me not to leave thee, or to return from following after thee; for whither thou goest, I will go; and where thou lodgest, I will lodge, thy people shall be my people, and thy God my God.

Where thou diest, wil I die, and there will I be buried: the LORD do so to me, and more also, if ought but death part thee and me.　「choice of wedding scriptures」

[Ruth 1:14-17]

And it came to pass, when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit with soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul.

And Saul took him that day, and would let him go no more home to his father's house.

Then Jonathan and David made a convenant, because he loved him as his own soul.

And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was upon him, and gave it to David, and his garments, even to his sword, and to his bow, and to his girdle

[1 Samule 18:1-4]

And as soon as the lad was gone, David arose out of a place toward the south, and fell on his face to the ground, and bowed himself three times; and they kissed one another, and wept one with another, until David exceeded.

[1 Samule 20:41]

要被人拉去倒计时拉～
凑下热闹～
顺便蹭吃蹭喝一下　嘿嘿

刚刚和Samuel聊天
聊得激情澎湃
果然朋友永远是老得好

总结和期许什么的等一下再说
比较适合夜深人静的时候
先酝酿下感情拉

各位　新年快乐！2012见！

城市冬日的清晨一般都是匆匆而过
在赶车 买早点 更多时候都在走神 因为没睡醒
但今天很清醒
门外是一派萧瑟 积雪厚厚白茫茫一片加上应景的鸟叫声

包包不在 越发夜游得彻底

再过不到3小时 上海就迎来2012
我这里还有勉强的一天要去度过

彻夜不休 通宵视频 聊天笑骂 有玩笑也有感动 
才发现我们都在不同时期纠结着相似的问题
自我认知 自我认同 矛盾 彷徨 释然 层出不穷
找寻群体 找寻归属 找寻那个避风港 找寻真情

觉得很有必要记录 此刻的心情和感悟
算是给2011的交代和2012的启示

苹果 意面 热牛奶 躺在床上敲键盘
开始我不眠不休的2011最后一天